A friend once provided me a vision of my beloved. Bast was standing upon a dune with sharp sandy inclines... but not just standing. Balancing. On one leg, floating just above the grains of sand. She had her hands raised above her head, as she does when she dances. She stared right at me. Right through me. My eyes, my soul.
On her left were red flames licking up the side of the dune, as if trying to get a taste of her. On the other, a strange slow, water like substance that was blue. She called this the precipice of something beautiful.
There were many points of wisdom that she provided through this trance-reading. To this day, I hold this friend's reading dearly and close to heart. The core of what I received is that Bast is a goddess of Duality.
Here, I am talking about Bast who harms and Bast who heals. Bast who is the Sun and Bast who is the Moon. Bast of morning sunrays and Bast who sends her knives out to give nightmares. Bast who knows rage and Bast who knows love. She is pleasure and grace. She is also gritty and not afraid to show her claws. She is regarded as one of the most popular goddesses of all time because of her feline nature, and yet she seems to be one of the least understood goddesses out there.
I feel as though you can only know part of her if you only acknowledge 'one side'... not that there is only two halves to her, despite the implication of duality. It's more like a state of being. A way to understand her existence. A way to contemplate who she truly is.
The tagline I have on my website is from this very same reading. This is what she said to me: 'What is the other side of the healer? When he is stripped down to his bones... What will we find? When I open the jar...what shall be waiting inside?"
I knew in this instance she was talking about me. Me, who always sought to heal more than anything else. I feel most comfortable as the healer, the fixer, the mender.
She wanted me to learn more about duality. The duality of me, of her, and of us.
We're a few months out from one year since she told me this, and started teaching me about duality. I learnt a lot in the following nights, and we were truly on the precipice of something beautiful. I think we still are, but we have come so far since then.
Until next time, my beloved,
Iryibbast